Saturday, December 31, 2011

the best things in life . . .

The coming and going of the old days into new days is always a time for assessment.  We cant help it.  We have the capacity to look forward and backward.  In this we find our lessons learned, our loves remembered.  I've already been feeling as if this cancer year will be nothing more than a chapter in a very thick book of my life.  In some ways I suppose this is "magical thinking".  Yet it's my magical thinking that has gotten me through.  Now i feel that it is my duty to try not to forget my trials by being of help to others that are going through cancer.  I'm not wanting to be a crusader as much as I wish to help dispel fear.  We all have to walk our own road but how to do it fearing the unknown?  There must be a way?

So, in this new year I hope that I can make art that intrigues and be a good friend, confidante, good partner to my mister and be kind to strangers.  The links will be from common interests but also of discovering adventures in people and places.  The next chapter shall be written without fear but include lots of scribbling and curiosity.  I take comfort greatly in knowing that i have a future.
I hope everyone that reads this shall find their fun and happiness.  The best things of life.  Happy new year!

Monday, December 26, 2011

almost new year

The "risky" bit I referred to in my last posting has to do with playing with paint in such a way as to not have any control over how its going to drip! 

I threw this painting on the floor and dribbled paint on it from a squirt bottle, turned the painting upside down and left the studio. Two hours later the white paint had dripped just perfectly.  It somehow redeemed this painting.  This is called, "The Great Stag Rescue".  It was my offering to our art group theme challenge painting on the subject of "redemption".

Now I'm on to a paid commission.  Yet while it is still in its infancy I've completed another painting.  It was going to be a simple "decorative piece" of a chair.  When I looked at it today, I realised that I wanted it to be more provocative than just an old chair on an abstract background.  Without really thinking about it I decided "fire" was the right thing for the chair.  Now, instead of being a "wishing chair", its a "burning chair".  What that means, I've no idea, but I like the energy it has.  Instead of being a "still" piece, it has in it the idea of "quickness", or "transcience".  Maybe, it could even mean that I've burned the need to hold down furniture in my recouperation!  Perhaps!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


I just came in from the studio after having taken a BIG RISK!
Normally when I'm painting I'm making marks to show what is in my head.  I get so involved with mark making that it almost seems as if I've climbed inside the painting.  Then, when I step back I'm surprised sometimes at how deliberate my marks seem.  It is then that I start painting in a different way, reacting to putting paint on canvas with a bit more dash and looseness.  It is this looseness and not being afraid to make things ugly that excites me.

It is an evolutionary thing I'm thinking; learning how to paint without worrying about messing up.  Its rather liberating actually.

Today's risk was to take a painting that has some really strong meaning and add marks made by using a squeeze bottle of paint thinned with gels.  I used the bottle like scribbling with a pencil.  I left the studio with the freshly made marks with the canvas turned upside down to see how, by morning the drips will affect the painting.  I came out of the studio not worried about how it may or may not wreck all the work I've done thus far, because it was fun and experimental. It will either work or not? 

 I would show you this painting but must wait until the weekend as it is part of an art group "challenge" painting.  At our meeting this Friday we all will unveil our paintings on the theme of "redemption."  After, I certainly will post the picture.  I'm curious to see how others will react.

So whether or not the risk I took today on this painting works or not, I do like the idea that I can trust to try new things to not become stale as a painter but to also learn the lesson of not being too deliberate in the painting strokes I make.  Play yields a better result than work!